Hey All:

I’m supposed to be writing right now and am procrastinating by google imaging Beth Ditto and text messaging with four people at once.  These days I am so disciplined in every way except creatively.  My creative process is totally scattered and all over the f’in place, occurs in like six notebooks in random locations/purses/cities and is completely disorganized.  I just talked about this w my therapist on Thurs and that’s how my brain feels too.  Like a million thoughts running in a million different directions at once.  It creates huge anxiety bc I have this fear that like “real” artists sit down at a piano and write for six hours a day and it’s all organized and amazing.  My piano has 1000 papers on it plus this crazy thing some biz associate sent my dad for Xmas (I live it his old apt fyi) and 3 picture frames w no pics.  Meanwhile I do all of my best writing in my bed.  My therapist says anxiety can be good for you and that this is the one very productive way in which I use my anxiety.  I’ve waited til the last minute to do everything I ever had to do in my life and you can’t really be creative that way but my creative process is weirdly that way.  It’s 3pm and I know by the end of the day I will have written something I love - I know it - but it’ll be a full day of anxiety, procrastination (see also:this totally unnecessary blog entry) and random phone calls until I get it done.  I need to know what other people’s creative processes are like.  Altho I feel like no one is honest about their process. I just got asked abt my process in an interview on Friday and totes was like “you know, it’s dif w every song, etc” but the truth is my creative process is a hot ass mess that’s all over the place.  I am going to go w the story that creating genre-less, all-over-the-place, blended, mixed-up music can only be created with a crazy mad scientist type process.  That or Brody and I fight in the studio so much because he’s constantly trying to take all of my ingredients and make them into a sonic mixed up soup.  Okay, gotta go write some shit about this film The Quiet Earth - have you seen it?  It’s mad inspiring.
Hesta

Took this at Pianos last night.  Then played a show.  Then played like 6 songs ODB guested on in a row.  Then felt the wrath of @chuckbrody.

Visiting my friends Tegan & Sara on tour in Toronto.  Photog Lindsey Byrnes took this one of me early this am.  We’re cold!